OCTOBER 25, 2019.
“Today is yesterday’s tomorrow, and tomorrow is another day. Life goes on.”
I’m not sure who said that. I’ve seen it written in several places over the years. What I am sure of is that it’s true. Over the years, I’ve come to understand that no matter good or bad our experiences can if we allow them help us to grow. We can learn and expand. We can take our situations no matter how bad they get and find something positive. That old saying of “there’s a silver lining behind every cloud” is true no matter how corny it sounds.
I can’t count how many blessings have come from the darkness I went through starting in 2012 and running through 2017. Those were some of the darkest stormiest sad days of my life. During which I managed to lose a lot of people I truly cared about and cannot ever replace. I may never get those people back in this lifetime. I may go to my grave without ever seeing my grandchildren again. I may never have the pleasure of hearing my daughter’s beautiful contagious laughter. I may never know greatgrandchildren. I may never be able to sit across the table from my first Seeing Eye instructor and tell stories of the adventures Campbell, the dog he helped me obtain and I took together. Why? Because for a time I was so lost to the anger and bitterness caused by various situations I was experiencing that I couldn’t no matter how hard I tried stop the madness which had overtaken me.
Now, though that lesson was a painful one and the loss from it is great I am standing tall and strong. I came through it into another level of my life in which even with all that has befallen me I find peace, love and joy.
No, I don’t have a lot but what I have is mine. I have food in my cabinets, clothes on my body, shelter, a healthy senior snoring dog, and a new successor dog on the way this coming spring.
I’ve some good solid friends and a lot of supporters. I have some reader fans, and I’ve happiness, joy and love.
I have self-awareness. I have health both physical and mental. I have good times and I have hard ones and most of all I’ve my faith which sees me through it all.
I hope those who might read this find some way to find all these good things I’ve found, and I hope they too come from their own darkness into the light.
There is no part of my life which does not belong to the Goddess.
There is no part of my body which does not belong to the Goddess.
I am she, and she is me.
We are one, yet we are we.
The photo shown was taken while I was in nursing therapy recovering from illness in 2017.
It shows Campbell and me sitting in a courtyard resting after my having walked unaided for the first time in nearly three weeks.
I was only able to walk 40 feet that day, but I was never so happy.