Campbell, My Life Hard Decisions and Tears

 

Hello to everyone.

I hope all are well this night.

As you all who follow me regularly know Campbell is having issues. If you’ve been keeping up with me of late, you most likely saw the post I put out mid-week called: ‘Campbell In Phase One of Retirement’

Yesterday you may have seen posts from me on Facebook concerning his becoming ill and having to be taken quickly to the vet and that he has been put onto medications for arthritis in the hopes that it will relieve his pain thus making it easier for him to walk.

In that first post about his phase one of retirement, I wrote of how, I wished to slowly phase him out of the working process, get him used to being a stay at home dog and eventually return to The Seeing Eye to get another dog thus having a new working dog while having Campbell as a pet.

This morning I heard from the vet who saw us yesterday and learned that Campbell’s blood work and urine tests were down the line perfect, his physical showed absolutely no health issues other than the visible arthritis, and though we are going back to the vet on this coming Friday for another consult and we will do full body imaging to make absolutely certain there are no tumors or other issues inside that are causing issue that the blood work is not showing it is looking more and more like some of the other symptoms I’ve been seeing over the last few months that I’ve blamed on other things may in fact be the onset of what is known as Canine Cognitive Disorder. This is much like our own dementia and is acting much like what is known as Sundowners.

I must tell you after answering with much thought, the vet’s questions today I believe they may be correct in their thinking.

Of course, we’re not sure at all, but the bottom line is this. I’ve been gathering blog posts and short stories I’ve written to put into an anthology of short stories I’m working on and earlier today I ran across something I wrote during November just before Campbell’s 10TH birthday. As I read the tears began to fall and I realized that I would not ever be willing to give Campbell over to another should I bring a dog here and Campbell not feel happy with me going and coming with another dog. The thoughts of someone else caring for Campbell no matter how good they might do it simply make me physically sick.

As I read this post, I’m about to reshare which I’ve edited only slightly due to the changing of the month and I thought about Campbell being with someone else I had to throw aside my computer, run to the bathroom and vomit. I simply cannot possibly allow someone else to have charge of my boy, no matter what.

I plan to continue forward with working with the vet to gain a firm diagnosis, and I plan to speak with The Seeing Eye again afterward so that we can plan a bit better concerning how to go forward with the things they suggested.

We know that the pain Campbell is in is part of his stress licking, and disorientation. It may be that the medications help with some of that after they get into his system.

I have to say though, that this evening around 7 or so he began once again to become extremely agitated, pacing from room to room, licking his feet, and mouth, drooling on himself and panting until I took him outside, and then lay with him until he went to sleep.

Either A the pain is getting worse in the evening and he needs a stronger dose of the new medication or B what is suspected about Canine Cognitive Disorder is so.

Either way if he continues as he is at the current time he will not go back into his harness. I’ve been advised to not work him at all until we return to the vet and I agree with that one-hundred percent.

I ask you please, read the following. Understand that this is by far one of the very hardest things I’ve ever been through, know that thus far The Seeing Eye has been most supportive of me as this situation unfolds, and I expect that to continue as time goes on.

Please also know that when they do send someone down it will, like everything else they do for their students and graduates be of no cost to me, so if you would like to help support me and others like me please follow the link given at the end of this post and please do donate something. If you’d like to you may donate in Campbell’s name. We would be most appreciative.

For now, I leave you with the following offering. Thank you for reading.

 

CAMPBELL MY LIFE

BY: PATTY L. FLETCHER

NOVEMBER 2018

 

I feel I must write a bit about my King Campbell Super ® Seeing Eye Dog A.K.A Bubba, who he is, and what he means to me.

Now, everyone who knows us knows that Campbell is my ® Seeing Eye Guide Dog. It has been said by some that he is my independence, and this is so, but he is much more than that.

You see, other than people I see when I am out and about, talk with on the phone, via email, or some means of social media I haven’t any close friends or family.

I live here alone, and many days if not for the Meals on Wheels volunteers, mail carriers, and the few neighbors I speak to as Campbell and I go on our various outings throughout the day we see no one.

Campbell is my strength. He is my company. He and I sleep together, travel together, read books and listen to music together and even enjoy our meal times together.

We share everything. He is my very very best friend and more. I am his human mother and he is my son. I know what he is thinking and he me many times before we can either of us even act upon it.

He knows by my behaviors when I’m going to use the phone, or computer. He understands by how I sit in my chair whether I’m going to enjoy a book or work on the writing of one.

If I wake in the night in pain from my fibromyalgia, he is always there to comfort me with a lick on the hand, nuzzle of nose, or a snuggle of his body against mine.

If I cry, he comes to me no matter where he is or what he is doing even at times waking from a deep sleep to wash away my tears and reassure me.

If I laugh, he wags his tail and laughs with me and if I become annoyed or angry at something he huffs and puffs in annoyance just as I do.

He takes me to the store, and out to eat. He makes sure I get to and from the doctor’s office, and even when he is not feeling well and must go to the vet most times, he works to get me there safely.

Last year when I became ill and was first hospitalized, and then sent to nursing therapy so that I could fully recover before going home he went right along with me and encouraged me every moment of the way.

Everything we do is connected and to us there is nothing more important than the other.

So, Campbell is my very life and without him I don’t know where or what I would be.

Even way back when I was still in training at the Seeing Eye, and for the most part things were decent between my now EX and my then family and me, I somehow knew that one day I would find myself alone and that Campbell and I would have only one another.

 

*** Updated December 2018***

 

It is with these thoughts as well as all that has transpired since my first having written, that I call to you. I ask you, during this very difficult time, please do donate a bit of money to The Seeing Eye. In King Campbell Lee Fletcher’s name.

In this way you will be helping many persons to have wonderful companions such as what I have described.

There are many blind persons who have families, and friends who depend upon these dogs to help them exist alongside them.

But.

There are many more who are like me, alone with no one else but their beautiful dogs walking alongside them every-day and if you could help this wonderful school and its work go onward you will be doing something more worthwhile than anything you’ve ever done before.

Here is just a bit more information about Campbell and the wonderful land from where he comes.

King Campbell was born in Chester N.J. November 28, 2008.

He lived with his Dog Mother and Litter Mates until he was approximately eight weeks old, and then he went to live with his Puppy Raisers.

Then, when he was just over a year-old, he was taken away from his Puppy Raiser family by a wise and ancient trainer, so he could go and live in the magickal and ancient land of The Seeing Eye, where his training truly began.

After only four short months he was chosen to become the guide of his now human mother Patty L. Fletcher author of this writing.

 

To learn more about this most important school and the work they do see:

THE SEEING EYE® and SEEING EYE® are registered trademarks of The

Seeing Eye, Inc.See: http://www.SeeingEye.org

 

Thanks for reading, and if you would, please do share.

 

 

 

About Patty L. Fletcher

About Patty October 2021 Patty and her guide dog Blue. Patty has her hair tied back in a low ponytail and rests her right hand on Blue's head. She wears a white shirt with a pink and purple butterfly on the front and light blue shorts. Blue is a handsome black lab. He wears a brown leather harness with a handle attached to the back and is smiling at the camera as he sits in front of Patty. In the background is a brick building with white, windowed doors and a flowerpot overflowing with pink and yellow blooms. Updated – October 2021 Patty Fletcher is a single mother with a beautiful daughter, of whom she is enormously proud. She has a great son-in-law and six beautiful grandchildren. From April 2011 through September 2020, she owned and handled a black Labrador from The Seeing Eye® named King Campbell Lee Fletcher A.K.A. Bubba. Sadly, after a long battle with illness on September 24, 2020, King Campbell went to the Rainbow Bridge where all is peace and love. In July 2021, she returned to The Seeing Eye® and was paired with a Black Labrador Golden Retriever cross named Blue. PATTY’S BLINDNESS… Patty was born one and a half months premature. Her blindness was caused by her being given too much oxygen in the incubator. She was partially sighted until 1991, at which time she lost her sight due to an infection after cataract surgery and high eye pressure. She used a cane for 31 years before making the change to a guide dog. WHERE SHE LIVES AND WORKS… Currently, Patty lives and works in Kingsport, Tenn. She’s the creator and owner of Tell-It-To-The-World Marketing (Author, Blogger, Business Assist), The Writer’s Grapevine Online Magazine and the creator and host of the Talk to Tell-It-To-The-World Marketing Podcast. WRITING GOAL… Patty writes with the goal of bridging the great chasm which separates the disabled from the non-disabled. HOBBIES… Patty’s hobbies include reading, music, and attending book clubs via Zoom. FAVORITE TUNES… Some of her favorite types of tunes are classic rock, rhythm and blues, and classic country. FAVORITE READS… Patty enjoys fantasy, science fiction, and books about the supernatural. She loves books by Stephen King, Dean Koontz, Norah Roberts, and many more. Some favorite books include Norah Roberts’ Hide Away, Stephen King’s Dark Tower series, J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter series, Robert Jordan’s Wheel of Time series, and J.R.R. Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings series. SPIRITUAL FAITH… Patty describes herself as a spiritual Walker. She says she knows both Mother Goddess and Father God and embraces all they have to offer. CONTACT… Email: patty.volunteer1@gmail.com Visit: https://pattysworlds.com/ And: https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/PattyFletcher As well as: https://www.amazon.com/Patty-L.-Fletcher/e/B00Q9I7RWG
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10 Responses to Campbell, My Life Hard Decisions and Tears

  1. joanmyles says:

    oh, Patty…my heart is breaking to hear all you are going through……please be in touch if you need someone to tlk to, just to listen…you and Campbell remain in my thoughts and prayers, love you!

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    • Patty says:

      Joan. Thanks so much for your comment. Your love, and willingness to be there for us is what we need at this time.

      I’m so hoping I’m wrong about what we think but so many things that have been happening over the last few months make such clearer sense.

      I will for sure keep in touch.

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  2. Thinking of you and Campbell during this difficult time, Patty!

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    • Patty says:

      Thanks to you Becky

      We’re grateful for the loving thoughts and prayers.

      I need much of that at this point. I need wisdom to know exactly what I’m facing with my pup, guidance to know what to do with the wisdom, and strength to do what must be.

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  3. Oh, it’s so sad, Patty! Thanks for this and all that you wrote to me earlier this evening.

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    • Patty says:

      Leonore, you’re welcome.

      You know? In many ways you’ve been right alongside Campbell and me almost from the beginning. You’ve witnessed our beginning our growth, you’ve witnessed my darkest times, and even though you were a target for some of my misdirected bitterness, and anger, still you stand true here this day.

      Isn’t it funny how that works? Sometimes those you least expect to be there when things start to go downhill turn out to be the stronger of the supporters.

      Campbell and I are grateful to you and David for helping us begin our writing career and for helping us to tell our story to the world.

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  4. Whatever you end up doing, I’m sure it will be with what’s best for both you and Campbell in mind. I wish you the best of luck with whatever happens, and hope you can find a way to have Campbell pain-free and content.

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    • Patty says:

      I will do what is best for him.

      I will have him as long as he is comfortable, and his quality of life is good.

      Either way this goes it’s not going to be easy.

      The trouble is, right now, early morning he’s bouncy happy and energetic. As the day begins to come to a close, he declines hugely.

      We will just have to see what the vet recommends, and how things progress. It’s so early in the game and there are so m any variables, it is just very hard to tell.

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  5. It is so difficult to see our beloved animal companions age, whether they are working dogs or family pets. I have every confidence that you will do what is best for Campbell. My thoughts are with you.

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    • Patty says:

      Thanks so much to you for commenting. I’m so appreciative of you and everyone who is lending their support, whether it be silent or spoken.

      Today has been a little better.

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