Good morning campbellsworld visitors. Here we are on Sunday weekend’s gone and a new week’s begun.
When I woke just after 5 this morning I knew today would be a better day than yesterday had been.
Standing barefoot in the quiet of the early morning kitchen chewing two aspirin and drinking hot strong black coffee I was sure of it.
The roaring beast Toothache turned migraine I’d battled all Saturday seemed to be gone. Though my jaw was sore from the constant tightness the muscle cramps from an attack of TMJ had caused, it was a safe bet I felt a hell of a lot better than 24 hours ago.
Yesterday had been a dud. Nothing I’d planned for that day got done except a few dishes and one load of clothes. I’d even missed company that had stopped by. By the time I’d received a messenger message and realized someone had been there they were gone. The pain had been simply all consuming.
This morning I’d reset the wake-up alarm from 6 AM to 7 so I knew I had a few minutes before Campbell would want out. My goal was to teach him not to go out or eat until 7. I’d moved us from 4 O’clock in the morning to 6 O’clock in the morning over the summer. Now I wanted to move the hour up one more.
By 15 after 6 it was evident I’d be doing this in increments of 15 or 20 minutes a day until I got it done so at his insistence I gave in fed and walked him.
I took my time, washing and drying his bowls getting them ready for his breakfast of kibble and fresh water while he politely rested by the kitchen door. As it turned out that took longer than I’d first thought so when I actually set his bowls of kibble and water down in his room it was passed 6:30 headed toward 7. By the time he’d finished eating and gone out I saw I’d not done too bad after all.
Later, after ‘Hangout Time With Bubba’ was over and I sat out on my back deck having another cup of coffee I realized this day was truly a blank slate on which the whole week could be drawn.
Except for a rice dish I’d made yesterday there was no cooked food in the house and little of anything left in the cabinets.
I had bus coupons and about $7 on my Paypal Cash Card yet, I felt no despair. Over the summer I’d learned that if I only asked and believed I received. I never did without and somehow all my bills worked themselves out each month. So, this morning rather than worry how I’d manage to get through the week, taking a deep breath pushing back from the edge yet again I prayed…
“Thank you for the morning sun. Thank you when this day is done all our needs they will be met. Thank you for what we have and for what we have not yet.
Thank you when this day is through, we will still be we and you will still be you.
Give us what to do and say. Light our path and guide our way.
So Mote It Be this Day.
Blessid Be. Amen.
With the night sounds fading and the city waking around me I planned. This day wouldn’t be so hard to get through. Meals On Wheels delivered to me on Sunday and the meal was one of the best of the entire week. Whether it was because they had less people to cook for thus were able to afford better quality food, or the volunteers from the church’s congregation were quite generous I didn’t know but I always looked forward to it each week. I fasted lots of times on Sunday morning even when I had food a plenty in house. I felt it helped me keep my focus. If I were hungry when that meal came it would be more the better.
I had my rice dish for supper which had turned out better than I’d expected so I wasn’t concerned about it at all. Sometimes it wasn’t how much you had not even what you had, it was simply that you had.
Monday morning, we would get up early. I’d have a shower and be dressed by 7. Campbell would go out, eat, and we’d have our snuggle wake up time together. By that time, it would be time to catch the bus. We would do that, go to the grocery store, grab some breakfast from the deli and by the time we returned home my Meals On Wheels would be here, and I could put it away for supper. Tuesday my Food Stamps would be on my card, and time to shop would be to hand.
Knowing it was time to start stocking up for winter, I vowed that I’d buy at least two extra items that I did not currently need. Things that would keep that could be used during times of bad weather when I couldn’t get out. I would try to make this something that could serve multi-purposes.
Dried milk, beans, sugar or flower.
From now on every-time I shopped at least one if not two extra usable items had to go into the cart of items I’d bring home.
I was also determined to find a reliable source for one food bank delivery a month.
I’d thought that was resolved and that the person who had picked up for me in July would do it again in August but she had not so I knew I must get that going with some regularity.
I knew there were several things to begin dealing with this week. The timing of Campbell’s relief times and feeding were only a small part of the things I had to get done.
“Winter will be here before we know it.” I said to Campbell as I came back inside.
“Winter will be here and if we’re not careful we’ll not be ready.”
The thoughts of winter made my stomach do flip-flops.
I did not have a good coat, and I needed a new pair of every-day walking shoes. The weather could sneak up on you. If you didn’t pay good attention to weather updates snow could be falling onto the street making life a misery for everyone before you knew it.
So many times, I’d gotten caught unaware. I was determined that should a winter storm come up without warning I’d be ready without much work.
I wanted to have bottled water, coffee, flower, and sugar. I wanted to make sure to have a few cans of potted meat. Crackers, and some canned fruit.
I hoped for peanut butter and honey. I wanted to try and get herbal teas, I wanted cleaning supplies. Toilet paper, paper towels, and detergent for the dish-washer, and laundry.
Coffee filters, and batteries. Lighter and a couple good candles. I might not need the light but lighting a candle will give me purpose and focus and give Campbell a little warmth of light.
“He might can see in the dark but surely having that would make us both feel more comfortable and would signal folks we were here if we needed them to know it.”
I thought, planned, worried and hoped.
Now, here I am writing all this down. Why? I’ve no idea. Maybe I’ll start journaling a bit more about how I make all this come to be. It will come to be you know? It must. Without it we will not survive.
That I suppose is the whole of it. I feel an urgency I’ve not felt in autumns past. I feel I must start now. I know that soon will be the Equinox, and not long after the teeth of Old Man Winter will be felt.
It is more. There are changes afoot. Changes all of us will feel and that which I do to ready for the Season of Winter, will also ready us for whatever long, terrible, cold dark Winter winds of change blow during its passing.
Here is today’s calendar. You’ll see if you read today’s focus is on health, protection, and prosperity.
GrannyMoon Says Today is: Sun Day
Sunday, 9 September 2018
GrannyMoon Says Today is: Sun Day – Energy: Male Ruler: The Sun – Rules
health, prosperity, leadership, joy, and protection – Use for magick
involving happiness, prosperity, joy, healing, protection, power,
leadership, ego, authority figures, fathers, husbands
Today’s Goddesses: Sunne, Frau Sonne, Aditi, Igaehindvo, Amaterasu, Arinna,
Today’s Magickal Influences: Health, Healing, Confidence and Hope, Prosperity
Incense: Mastic, Palaginia
Perfumes: Heliotrope, Orange Blossom, Cloves, Frankincense, Ambergris, Musk,
Color of The Day: Orange, Gold
Colors for Tomorrow: Silver, Gray, White
Lucky Sign: Sunday Is The Lucky Day For Leo