For the Morning I Think I’ve Lost It

OK, I’ll admit it. I lost it this morning. Absolutely had it with an ungrateful person in my life, and finally just flat-out told her about herself.

Let me set the stage.

This person lives in a high-rise apartment complex. She has supportive services out the Ying-Yang, and is the most ungrateful for them of anyone I’ve ever seen.

This morning we were talking and I said, “You’re lucky to have a food bank that delivers to your complex.”
Her response absolutely flew all over me. She said…
“They hardly ever have anything decent.”
Now, this was after her having told me that she’d gotten a big bag of chips, a large package of chicken strips, and in weeks past she’d told me of getting cases of bottled water, fresh fruit, canned goods, and all manner of fresh veggies.

I could no longer stand this ungrateful attitude.

I said…

“You know? You’re just gonna have to take that ingrate act somewhere else.” She interrupted and repeated, “Well, they really hardly ever have anything worth having.”

Folks, I blew up! Yes! Exploded!!!

I said…

“Do you know that as you speak that ungrateful shit, I have no food on my kitchen cabinet shelves? Do you know what it is to get one meal per day? To only be able to afford to buy about $100 or so worth of groceries, and when that’s gone it’s just gone? Do you know what it is to go to bed hungry at night, and wonder what you’ll do on the day your Meals On Wheels doesn’t deliver?”

I took a breath, gave her time to answer, and she had none.

I continued and said, “You have a great support system, people to read your mail, help you with laundry, clean your house, which by the way you do not have to pay for, and you draw more money than I probably ever will. You waste more food then I’ll probably ever have access to, and all you can do is bitch!”

Still she had nothing to say.

I said, “So you think I’m being hateful? Maybe we don’t have any more to say to one another.”

And, with that, she hung up.

I texted her and said, “Until you lose the ingrate act, don’t call me, we’ve nothing to say to each-other.”

Harsh? I don’t care.

I sit round trying to be grateful for the fact that I’ve got store-brand instant coffee, because a morning without coffee is hell for me due to all the night-time meds I take, and my coffee-pot doesn’t work right now, and I ran out of coffee grounds, and could not make real coffee by boiling water and pouring it through a filtered container.

I count blessings if I find an apple I did not realize I had, and I’m grateful if I can get out of bed in the morning, dress myself, and make it to the bathroom to do my necessary without having an accident because of all the health issues I’ve had, and all she could do was bitch and say, “They hardly ever have anything?”

I couldn’t take it one more minute.

The following describes what today is represented by. I think the passion and aggression got the better of me this morning, and I’m not sure I care.

Sorry, that’s just how I feel.

This is Patty, who is grateful for each and everything she has, and King Campbell A.K.A Bubba who’s happy no matter what saying…
May harmony find you, and when it does, please pass it back to me, because for the morning I think I’ve lost it.

GrannyMoon Says Today Is: Tiu’s Day – the day of Mars…also Ares, Tiwaz,
Tiw (from whom it is named), Tuisco, and Tyr. Tuesday is ruled by Mars,
whose Magickal influences are: Passion, courage, aggression, and
protection. Tuesday comes under the influence of Mars, the planet associated
with vitality, passion, ambition, and raw, unabashed power.
Mars energy makes the mind acute, and the body restless; therefore, on
Tuesday, we are likely to exert ourselves physically and take action to
achieve goals. This day is dynamic and high-spirited, and the prevailing
energies may include carelessness and destructiveness as well, so it is good
to be cautious—especially while traveling.
Today’s Magickal Influences ~ Destination, War, Courage, Surgery, Physical
Strength
Today’s Goddesses: Aset [Isis], Soorejnaree, Pingalla, Anna, Aine, Danu,
Yngona, Bellona, Aida Wedo, Sun Woman
Perfumes: Hellebore, Carnation, Patchouli
Incense: Lignum Aloes, Plantain
Color of The Day: Red
Colors for Tomorrow: Yellow
Lucky Sign: Tuesday Is The Lucky Day For Aries
Candle: Red

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