As we change from summer to fall, as it is predicted I have become reflective upon my life. I am giving thought, to that which has just passed, and to the new, yet to come.
This change in season coincides with my birthday. Last year, for whatever reason I dealt badly with the turning, this year though, I am filled with happiness and contentment.
I can see the improvements I have made. I now, understand the quote that has captured me so…. “I know I am alive, because I can look behind me, and see the wreckage of my life.”
That, did not always make sense. Even though it did not it still always resonated with me. Now, it fits perfectly.
Another phrase, “if you always do as you have done, you will always do as you have.” (Adaptation of quote from Mike Tate’s if you always do as you did, you will always have as you have.)
It all means the same. The wheel weaves as the wheel will.”
Today, the air has a small bite. Inside, I am chilled. It is more from emptiness then temperature. A void, I must find the filling for. Lesson finally learned, another cannot do that for me. That is only part of it. Not ever all of it. I must have something of my own. I had found it, lost it, now found it again. Remaking it. Is that not how it is supposed to be? We never get it done, never get it right, if we are lucky, we get it. Nothing more, nothing less. Only ever going forward. Learning, growing. To stop, is to truly die! Nothing lives forever. I say, that is not true. I say nothing remains forever. When the body I am currently in dies, my spirit, it, Will go on Word. It will and have it another being. It will learn, and grow. Only, when the spirit in habits, and goes forward no more, would it be dead in all ways. This, does not, seem possible. So, I am ever hopeful of continuing.
This is exciting! I realize, even now, I am doing that! I am not, that which I was not even yesterday. So, every day! Yes! Every day! Is a new life, a continuation, and that is most wonderful! This means that every day you get up is a day you can improve upon the day before and look forward to the day to come. You can know that if you do not reach that day to come in this body, that before your mourners can even put you in the ground, you will have gone onward.
So, knowing all of that I realize that I have done unto now all I was to have done and I am only to go and see what is to do next. I can no longer worry for yesterday, I can not worry for tomorrow, I can only be right now! Right now is wonderful. So, will it not always be? If I choose so mote it be!
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